When I/we thought about parenthood, I simply imagined toddlerhood or just before. Babies are cute and squirmy and lovely, but parenthood really only had this as a very short window. I understand that it really is. I/we are loving it. However, I find myself every so often remembering this is not temporary and I laugh, giggle, and sigh because I cannot figure out what life will look like as Noah and Diane Bup and Natalia in the future. Noah and I have loved our 20 years together so far, and now we get to add this little nibbles. I find myself looking at pictures to post on her map, and wonder, will I be that fun again with Noah? Will we have time to goof around? Will we always be planning hours, eating, and shocking ourselves as to how the day could go by and we simply had a great time staring at Natalia.
I guess I am saying, I don't want to miss my husband, but I do. I wish he were here to see her grab that fuzzy thing just now and I wish her were here to see her smile at me today.
How many days until summer vacation?!!! :)
I love my husband and he is a Papa to be proud of!
2 comments:
Ahh the memories! You will be a great parent to your child at every stage because you are thinking about it. I still marvel at my boys and stare at them (for many reasons!) My eldest is now inches taller than me but needs us more as he enters his teen years. Your baby is beautiful as are your words as you nurture her. Date night is important although I did not indulge until my first was five! Good luck.
here's hoping noah gets a snow day tomorrow!
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